My meditation on Wednesday: 9:00 am (30 minutes), in the airplane at 9 pm (45 minutes).
I came to Rovaniemi to meet some friends. It has been good but for some reason I am having a sleepless night. I slept 3 hours and have been awake since 3 am. It is 6 now.
Last night I slept well and late - till 10:30 am! I had a great day, with many ideas and discussions with my friends. At dinner I had a couple of glasses wine, like I did last night. I do not know if that is the reason why I am not sleeping. Maybe I have slept too much lately? Maybe I have paid that sleep debt I had and I have caught the sleep I need? Or maybe I am so sensitive and immediately if I fall out of my routine, I lose my sleep.
I do not know. All I know that not sleeping sucks! At the early hours I tend to get anxious and start thinking bad thoughts. Hopelessness creeps in. Right now I feel pretty miserable. I am also disappointed because I really thought I had done with sleeplessness.
Yesterday I did not meditate. Is that the reason? I meditated now, at 4 am because there was nothing else to do. I had an interesting sensation, like my hands became light and . Time passed quickly and before I knew I had done the 30 minutes. It did not help me to sleep, though.
I try to accept the situation and not make too much of it. This morning we will go to real Lapland, and have 5 hour drive ahead. I guess I can sleep in the car. It is ok. I release the need to sleep. I have slept well for a long time and maybe this was just something that had to happen.
Tonight we will sleep in a cabin and I am a bit worried how the sleeping will go there. But I am not thinking about it now.
It is ok.
I came to Rovaniemi to meet some friends. It has been good but for some reason I am having a sleepless night. I slept 3 hours and have been awake since 3 am. It is 6 now.
Last night I slept well and late - till 10:30 am! I had a great day, with many ideas and discussions with my friends. At dinner I had a couple of glasses wine, like I did last night. I do not know if that is the reason why I am not sleeping. Maybe I have slept too much lately? Maybe I have paid that sleep debt I had and I have caught the sleep I need? Or maybe I am so sensitive and immediately if I fall out of my routine, I lose my sleep.
I do not know. All I know that not sleeping sucks! At the early hours I tend to get anxious and start thinking bad thoughts. Hopelessness creeps in. Right now I feel pretty miserable. I am also disappointed because I really thought I had done with sleeplessness.
Yesterday I did not meditate. Is that the reason? I meditated now, at 4 am because there was nothing else to do. I had an interesting sensation, like my hands became light and . Time passed quickly and before I knew I had done the 30 minutes. It did not help me to sleep, though.
I try to accept the situation and not make too much of it. This morning we will go to real Lapland, and have 5 hour drive ahead. I guess I can sleep in the car. It is ok. I release the need to sleep. I have slept well for a long time and maybe this was just something that had to happen.
Tonight we will sleep in a cabin and I am a bit worried how the sleeping will go there. But I am not thinking about it now.
It is ok.
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