My meditation today: 12 pm (40 minutes)
Today has been a tough day. I was supposed to measure my BP but could not make myself to do it. I feel horrible! I feel stupid and lost and scared and rotten. I don’t know what to do. Other than to crawl under the blanket and stop existing.
Seems like I am eating tablets for a a condition that is caused by its management. Totally absurd!
I am in a very bad place right now and don´t expect anyone to understand.
I just read about the Paltrow+Martin divorce and a sentence from Martin hit a nerve:
'I think in life everyone needs to be broken in some way.
Yes indeed! We are all broken in one way or another. And it is through our brokenness that we can connect with one another. Right now I am on the same level as any miserable self-loathing person in this planet. It somehow makes me feel better.
Today has been a tough day. I was supposed to measure my BP but could not make myself to do it. I feel horrible! I feel stupid and lost and scared and rotten. I don’t know what to do. Other than to crawl under the blanket and stop existing.
Seems like I am eating tablets for a a condition that is caused by its management. Totally absurd!
I am in a very bad place right now and don´t expect anyone to understand.
I just read about the Paltrow+Martin divorce and a sentence from Martin hit a nerve:
'I think in life everyone needs to be broken in some way.
Yes indeed! We are all broken in one way or another. And it is through our brokenness that we can connect with one another. Right now I am on the same level as any miserable self-loathing person in this planet. It somehow makes me feel better.
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