My meditation yesterday: 6:30 pm (15 minutes)
My meditation today: 8:30 am (30 minutes)
I forgot to meditate yesterday - yaikes!!! The day was somehow crazy and then I just forgot the whole thing. At subway I managed to meditate for 15 minutes, thank goodness.
This morning I made an effort to do it and I did. I was tired and I guess I fell asleep for a little while. I am also not feeling all that great - I saw my ex yesterday at a function and escaped the situation so as not to have to talk to him. And then later I felt enormous longing for him. We texted a bit and that made me feel a bit better but the thing that he does not love me anymore really really hurts.
I am a bit discouraged that I have fallen into the hole again, though maybe the sorrow is not so intense anymore. I don´t know.
This day is full of challenges and somehow I feel exhausted even to think about it. I feel like crying. I realize that I am not in a good place. I try to listen to Esther to feel better.
My meditation today: 8:30 am (30 minutes)
I forgot to meditate yesterday - yaikes!!! The day was somehow crazy and then I just forgot the whole thing. At subway I managed to meditate for 15 minutes, thank goodness.
This morning I made an effort to do it and I did. I was tired and I guess I fell asleep for a little while. I am also not feeling all that great - I saw my ex yesterday at a function and escaped the situation so as not to have to talk to him. And then later I felt enormous longing for him. We texted a bit and that made me feel a bit better but the thing that he does not love me anymore really really hurts.
I am a bit discouraged that I have fallen into the hole again, though maybe the sorrow is not so intense anymore. I don´t know.
This day is full of challenges and somehow I feel exhausted even to think about it. I feel like crying. I realize that I am not in a good place. I try to listen to Esther to feel better.
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