My meditation on Saturday (2.45 pm 40 minutes)
My meditation today 12 pm (30 minutes + 15 minutes in metro at 1 pm)
The week-end was spent in mixed feelings. I stayed over at a friend´s place for saturday-sunday night and we had a nice dinner in the evening. My friend borrowed me Eben Alexander´s book “Proof of Heaven” that describes the writer´s (a brain surgeon) near death experience. I read it in the bus on my way home yesterday, as it was an easy-read and not too deep.
Alexander´s book made me more conscious of my strong inner desire to get into the very core of existence. I am almost envious I haven´t experienced a NDE myself but maybe that is because I have experienced a Near Life Experience instead, by having gone through the Ring Of Fire here on earth.
There is like a fire burning inside me and sometimes I feel it in my whole body. My sleep has been restless and I have strange and vivid dreams. Right now I feel nervous to a point of trembling a bit.
I have to get some work done today and I must deal with this strange yarning for something that I seem to harbor all the time. I feel like a piece of a puzzle that is desperately looking for the puzzle to fit in my hole in it.
I got the poster below on facebook and that is exactly the kind of thing I think I am in the need of...I so desire a spiritual and physical union with another human, a man.
There is a man in my life who would very much want to share this with me but I have the nagging sensation that he is not the one. Oh how I wish he was, though. How I wish I could just throw myself into the relationship that is out there, available for me!
I will have a 30 minute meditation to calm my nerves and then I am off to a meeting.
..........
The meeting is over and it went very well. It is good to do some work for a change. I feel energetic and optimistic and, in a strange way, really happy. My meditation today was very intensive and sensual, even sexual. I am like a cat in the spring time, restless and anxious. I am anticipating a big change, I feel it is coming and I am sure it is romance! I cannot wait!!! Yay!!!!
My meditation today 12 pm (30 minutes + 15 minutes in metro at 1 pm)
The week-end was spent in mixed feelings. I stayed over at a friend´s place for saturday-sunday night and we had a nice dinner in the evening. My friend borrowed me Eben Alexander´s book “Proof of Heaven” that describes the writer´s (a brain surgeon) near death experience. I read it in the bus on my way home yesterday, as it was an easy-read and not too deep.
Alexander´s book made me more conscious of my strong inner desire to get into the very core of existence. I am almost envious I haven´t experienced a NDE myself but maybe that is because I have experienced a Near Life Experience instead, by having gone through the Ring Of Fire here on earth.
There is like a fire burning inside me and sometimes I feel it in my whole body. My sleep has been restless and I have strange and vivid dreams. Right now I feel nervous to a point of trembling a bit.
I have to get some work done today and I must deal with this strange yarning for something that I seem to harbor all the time. I feel like a piece of a puzzle that is desperately looking for the puzzle to fit in my hole in it.
I got the poster below on facebook and that is exactly the kind of thing I think I am in the need of...I so desire a spiritual and physical union with another human, a man.
There is a man in my life who would very much want to share this with me but I have the nagging sensation that he is not the one. Oh how I wish he was, though. How I wish I could just throw myself into the relationship that is out there, available for me!
I will have a 30 minute meditation to calm my nerves and then I am off to a meeting.
..........
The meeting is over and it went very well. It is good to do some work for a change. I feel energetic and optimistic and, in a strange way, really happy. My meditation today was very intensive and sensual, even sexual. I am like a cat in the spring time, restless and anxious. I am anticipating a big change, I feel it is coming and I am sure it is romance! I cannot wait!!! Yay!!!!
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