My meditation today 2 pm (30 minutes), evening 5:30 pm (20 minutes). Chanting 8 minutes (after breakfast). Body balance 1 hour. Reike-healing for an hour and a half. 

After three hours of work-out yesterday, I slept really badly. I guess I overdid things. I felt restless and kept waking up every hour. And then I over-slept and woke up at 9:45, almost missing my breakfast.

I meditated at 2 pm and it was a great, deep meditation. I did not receive any information, though. This is what my (hidden) intention always is. I would love to get answers to my big questions - most importantly, how am I to support myself and my family in the future?

In the future - there we go again! I am not present! Why cannot I just trust the process of unfoldment!!!!

I try to not scold myself for the impatience. It is human and totally understandable. I will learn. I am learning already.

I am reading How God Changes Your Brain. I love it! It is so informative and interesting!

I love this course so much! It is such a beautiful gift! 

I had my first reike-healing session today. The healer said that my energy channels are clogged and my energy level very low. I knew this! She said that the energy of Kosmos cannot get into my system because I don´t allow it to. She did her healing and said I was a bit better. I felt very heavy after the treatment. I do not know if it worked but I do feel a bit calmer and my heart is not racing like it does usually.

I have been having a rapid pulse recently and in my afternoon meditation I deliberately tried to calm it down, by doing some heart breathing. I don´t know. I´d like to think it is a bit calmer now.