My meditation yesterday: 30 minutes (6am) and 30 minutes (7pm). Plus around 20 minutes at 4 pm, in a take-out restaurant while waiting for the food :)
My meditation today: 30 minutes (10 am)
In the midst of all this emotional turbulence, my meditations have been okay. I have noticed that oftentimes, after the meditation, if I have a chance to stay in bed, I sink into a very deep relaxation which is wonderful. Meditation still contains a little bit of struggle that comes with the intention to do it properly (which is there even though it should not!) but after the meditation, the floating in the nothingness is totally intention-less and hence wonderful.
The problem is that, even though I realize one should not do it, I have the bad habit of entering into meditation with the expectation that I would find answers to my many open questions. Such as What should I do with my life? What is my purpose? Where should I go? Who is my life partner and soul-mate?
I realize I have meditated systematically a few weeks only and given my very stressed take-off situation, I should be more than happy with what I have achieved. I know all is well and I am going to right direction.
May God give me more faith with all this!
My meditation today: 30 minutes (10 am)
In the midst of all this emotional turbulence, my meditations have been okay. I have noticed that oftentimes, after the meditation, if I have a chance to stay in bed, I sink into a very deep relaxation which is wonderful. Meditation still contains a little bit of struggle that comes with the intention to do it properly (which is there even though it should not!) but after the meditation, the floating in the nothingness is totally intention-less and hence wonderful.
The problem is that, even though I realize one should not do it, I have the bad habit of entering into meditation with the expectation that I would find answers to my many open questions. Such as What should I do with my life? What is my purpose? Where should I go? Who is my life partner and soul-mate?
I realize I have meditated systematically a few weeks only and given my very stressed take-off situation, I should be more than happy with what I have achieved. I know all is well and I am going to right direction.
May God give me more faith with all this!
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