My meditation today: 10 am (30 minutes). 5.30 pm (30 minutes). Bedtime affirmation meditation
I saw my husband yesterday, he came over to check-out our car that has some problems. As usual, I started feeling bad when he entered my energy field. And feeling bad made me feel worse as I am so disappointed with how little progress I have made. I find dealing with his new relationship as difficult as ever.
I went to bed with a heavy heart and did the Attracting love-meditation. It always helps, a little at least, to sort out my messed up frequencies. But it is interesting how I find it so hard to visualize the Healing White Light that she asks me to imagine. I somehow do not seem to be able to visualize any energies entering me - and this worries me a little. The Reike-healer I met before xmas said that my energy level is low, almost non existing and told me that I should just let the Cosmic energy to come and heal me. But I cannot! There seems to be a block.
I feel sad and tearful. And fearful. The sense of lostness is there again. Where am I going? What is to become of me?
At the dog-walk I tried to have an imaginary conversation with my (imagined) spirit guide. I would so want to hear someone, an Angel or Spirit Guide to tell or dictate me things, the way it happened to Elizabeth Gilbert, as described in her Eat Pray Love -book. But I hear nothing! No answers!
I wonder why that is? Why am I unable to connect with my consciousness and with the Universe when so many others can?
Why do I not get answers?
Or do the answers come in forms I am unable to read? I do feel strong hunches, like the one that advised me to start the meditation-course. Are these spiritual interferences? The problem is, perhaps, that I do not trust the unfoldment of life. I try to rush things and feel impatient when I do not manifest the desired outcomes immediately.
I have to finish an article today, the finishing of which I have postponed for ages. I will do it now. I try to calm my mind and get back to good vibration.
...
Again, the Universe sent me a reminder that I am being taken care of. I got this prayer from Sonia Choquette on facebook:
Holy Mother Father God
Please calm my anxious feelings this day, and reassure me of your presence. Help keep me grounded and calm, confident and available to all the good that is here and now. Thank you and Amen
Maybe Sonia had a bad day too! I am sending her loving thoughts right now!
I saw my husband yesterday, he came over to check-out our car that has some problems. As usual, I started feeling bad when he entered my energy field. And feeling bad made me feel worse as I am so disappointed with how little progress I have made. I find dealing with his new relationship as difficult as ever.
I went to bed with a heavy heart and did the Attracting love-meditation. It always helps, a little at least, to sort out my messed up frequencies. But it is interesting how I find it so hard to visualize the Healing White Light that she asks me to imagine. I somehow do not seem to be able to visualize any energies entering me - and this worries me a little. The Reike-healer I met before xmas said that my energy level is low, almost non existing and told me that I should just let the Cosmic energy to come and heal me. But I cannot! There seems to be a block.
I feel sad and tearful. And fearful. The sense of lostness is there again. Where am I going? What is to become of me?
At the dog-walk I tried to have an imaginary conversation with my (imagined) spirit guide. I would so want to hear someone, an Angel or Spirit Guide to tell or dictate me things, the way it happened to Elizabeth Gilbert, as described in her Eat Pray Love -book. But I hear nothing! No answers!
I wonder why that is? Why am I unable to connect with my consciousness and with the Universe when so many others can?
Why do I not get answers?
Or do the answers come in forms I am unable to read? I do feel strong hunches, like the one that advised me to start the meditation-course. Are these spiritual interferences? The problem is, perhaps, that I do not trust the unfoldment of life. I try to rush things and feel impatient when I do not manifest the desired outcomes immediately.
I have to finish an article today, the finishing of which I have postponed for ages. I will do it now. I try to calm my mind and get back to good vibration.
...
Again, the Universe sent me a reminder that I am being taken care of. I got this prayer from Sonia Choquette on facebook:
Holy Mother Father God
Please calm my anxious feelings this day, and reassure me of your presence. Help keep me grounded and calm, confident and available to all the good that is here and now. Thank you and Amen
Maybe Sonia had a bad day too! I am sending her loving thoughts right now!
No comments:
Post a Comment