My meditation today: 1:30 pm (30 minutes). Affirmation meditation at bedtime.
Todays morning meditation was interesting - really intense, almost scaringly so. I felt like some dark energy was released, black emotions, fears and scares.
I still feel a but restless, as though there is electricity in me. I is not bad feeling but not entirely pleasant either.
I must start cooking which is a good chore to do now because it keeps me grounded. All in all I feel like my energy level has gone up. I do not feel so exhausted anymore.
Another good day coming! Maybe even the long desired soulmate ;)
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The day has been OK, though my messed up frequencies and restlessness lead to some kitchen-disasters. Like, I burned the food I was cooking for my dog - because I was multitasking! And the potatoes in my fish soup were not entirely cooked when we started eating. Also, I did not find fresh salmon in the super-market but had to buy frozen instead. Soup became different than I intended but it was good nevertheless. This made me think that this is how life goes. You are given not exactly what you are asking for but can whip up decent things of the stuff that is available. Sometimes the result is even better!
The rest of the day was somehow "foggy". I almost entered into a misery and helplessness but got back after watching a nice film called the City Island. It was about a dysfunctional family that got together in the end. I cried - mainly because I feel so sad when seeing estranged husbands and wives getting back together. I was never given that chance and somehow it keeps bugging me, even after all the work I have done. And I have done lots! But the ultimate betrayal - that my husband really just stopped loving me and left me, to live with another woman, is so excruciating.
I guess it is just a lot to take in.
I am doing some reading about the Law of Attraction because I need a little energy boost. I might listen to some Esther as well. And then I´ll take a hot bath. It will be OK because it is OK.
And I am thankful for that.
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I did the affirmation meditation at bedtime and the first time since I have done it, I fell asleep just as she promised I would but never have, before.
Wow!
Todays morning meditation was interesting - really intense, almost scaringly so. I felt like some dark energy was released, black emotions, fears and scares.
I still feel a but restless, as though there is electricity in me. I is not bad feeling but not entirely pleasant either.
I must start cooking which is a good chore to do now because it keeps me grounded. All in all I feel like my energy level has gone up. I do not feel so exhausted anymore.
Another good day coming! Maybe even the long desired soulmate ;)
...
The day has been OK, though my messed up frequencies and restlessness lead to some kitchen-disasters. Like, I burned the food I was cooking for my dog - because I was multitasking! And the potatoes in my fish soup were not entirely cooked when we started eating. Also, I did not find fresh salmon in the super-market but had to buy frozen instead. Soup became different than I intended but it was good nevertheless. This made me think that this is how life goes. You are given not exactly what you are asking for but can whip up decent things of the stuff that is available. Sometimes the result is even better!
The rest of the day was somehow "foggy". I almost entered into a misery and helplessness but got back after watching a nice film called the City Island. It was about a dysfunctional family that got together in the end. I cried - mainly because I feel so sad when seeing estranged husbands and wives getting back together. I was never given that chance and somehow it keeps bugging me, even after all the work I have done. And I have done lots! But the ultimate betrayal - that my husband really just stopped loving me and left me, to live with another woman, is so excruciating.
I guess it is just a lot to take in.
I am doing some reading about the Law of Attraction because I need a little energy boost. I might listen to some Esther as well. And then I´ll take a hot bath. It will be OK because it is OK.
And I am thankful for that.
....
I did the affirmation meditation at bedtime and the first time since I have done it, I fell asleep just as she promised I would but never have, before.
Wow!
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