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My meditation today: 4 pm (30 minutes)

I have been sick since Monday, with stomach flu or something. Though I´d like to think that I have been finalizing my marriage break-up. I have felt like I have vomited the pain out of my system.

And, indeed, seems like I have.

Today my husband let me know that his girlfriend is going to stay here till March 9th - which, to me, is unnecessarily long time. Just as I was sinking into despair again, I changed the course. I found a secret face book group for Abraham-Hicks enthusiasts. I got an impulse to write the following post:  

Just letting you know I am starting a private happiness-retreat with myself and will continue till March 9th.

My husbands (we are separated) Brazilian girlfriend will be here till then and I have always felt great pain when she is here. So now I decided to focus on myself instead of them (well, duh!). I am doing all I can to stay happy and to keep my mind focused on the centering thought: "I am a Divine being and perfectly happy, no matter what happens in the physical world". I have been listening Pharrell William´s Happy song and the wonderful chant I found on this site. They help me amazingly well. I would also like you guys to send me good vibes! Thank you!

What happened then, was next to phenomenal! I received so much loving vibes on top of all of the loving notes and likes that I feel overwhelmed. 

Then, while lying in a bathtub, I got answers to my two questions. Firstly, that the our calling is not revealed to us instantly but, rather, we are guided towards it, step by step. The trick is to learn to listen to your soul voice and trust that even though you don´t know where you are going, you will find your purpose.

The other thing that hit me is that once you release the need to judge and, instead, decide to apply beginners mind to everything, the Universe starts communicating with you. I totally believe this now. Releasing the resistance is the key.

So - I am now on happiness regime. Whenever painful thoughts of them come to me, I will just turn my attention to my centering thought: "I am a Divine being and perfectly happy, no matter what happens in the physical world".

I got support from Eckhart Tolle who sent me the following message on facebook:

This is what I have been doing for over a year now. I know I am on a right path!

Thank you!